Self Perception


This page predominantly will be devoted to a further exposition of the multiplicity of mental self. Presently, we are editing several short texts complied by Kulwan; however, he tends to be too immersed in his philosophical bent and I (ADS) have resorted to major rewriting of the texts. Leroy has been of little help. He suggested several obscene passages which we summarily rejected. I pray your indulgence and suggest you use the blank space on this side of the web page as a meditative tool. Project your favorite image upon it and focus your mind or minds. It will save you the expense of paying for yoga classes.


Much has been said and written about MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). The very name suggests a condition that needs immediate medical (psychiatric) treatment as was the "demonic possession" of old. But, the truth is rarely given vent because few in the lofty practice of medicine and psychology risk the wrath of the "high priests" of the AMA and APA (American Medical Association and American Psychological Association). As an advanced major of psychology (several years of college), I know whence I speak. Demons must be rooted out and the possessed must be purged of the evil that enslaves them. Hmmm...still, there are voices diplomatically opposed to the mainstream hysteria. To that end, we offer this short excerpt of a counter-argument to the myth of multiple personality "dis-order". Our multiple personalities are quite orderly as are the multiple personalities of the bulk of the world's population. We are not mass murderers and rarely kill anyone or anything (tongue firmly planted in cheek). Give this a read. It might help you recover your sanity.


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Before I begin, let me point out that "we" have decided that there are three facets to my personality: ADSouza, Leroy Dumont and, for the lack of a better name, Kulwan. As Kulwan readily points out, the Yoga Sutras of Patanjali, the 'bible' of Raja Yoga, clearly defines the human consciousness as possessing "many minds" of which "the one evolved through contemplation stands apart from the others, detached from the desires and transformations" to which the other minds succumb. This detached mind is the essence of the "purusha" (unaffected self) who, for the most part, is the arbiter of the collective of other minds. Beyond his tendency to be overly philosophical, Kulwan (and Patanjali) was correct in this analysis. Our brain houses different personas that have evolved from our various contacts with the outside world and from the internal interaction between those personas. In an orderly mind as Kulwan points out, the persona that evolves from internal contemplation (a detached rational aspect) generally assumes the role of moderator within the collective of internal minds. Whenever trauma or other dire circumstances intervene, schizophrenia (two competing moderators) or multiple personality disorders (lack of cohesion and cooperation between personas) evolve. However, in a healthy mind, the various personas reach a compromise and evolve a cooperative collective that communally exercise control. In other words, a sort of board of directors emerges that mutually agree on the governance of the many aspects of the body and mind. In the latter sense, different personas are delegated authority as required by circumstances in the real world. This authority is given to the persona best suited to attend to the event at hand. When practiced intelligently, this delegation of authority occurs instantaneously, beyond the realm of time. Those who choose to examine their own mental functioning will realize that they constantly are doing this throughout the course of their lives without giving the process conscious thought. Unfortunately, this automated delegation of authority often produces inappropriate and undesired results, especially when an unqualified persona reacts to the situation at hand. Thus, after much introspection and internal debate, we (our Collective Minds) have undertaken a reorganization of the process. Although there are many subsets within our collective minds (other minor aspects or "minds"), we have chosen to group those subsets under three functional super-personas who in turn attend to the subsets under their control. Thus instead of reacting erratically from moment to moment, we act progressively to better ourselves within an ever-changing world.

As ADSouza, I serve as the moderator and arbiter of our Collective, operating analytically beyond the realm of emotion. I am the logical persona, remaining detached from the other aspects of body and mind. My primary interest lies in maintaining our communal harmony by providing equal time to the other super-personas. I arbitrate not dictate the course of our collective life, rationally evaluating the future courses of action the other super-personas suggest and evolve a mental "white paper" for all to discuss and debate. I should point out that this takes place at the unmeasurable speed of thought, not in real world time. When we analyze the operation of the mind, we come to realize that spontaneous ("spur of the moment") decisions are not spontaneous after all but underwent considerable processing before a course of action was set upon. Input to our eyes elicits an instantaneous evaluation of environment. Dangers are detected; sources of replenishment noted; and, every possible environmental help or hindrance logged within a part of the brain. Now if this data is delegated to the appropriate super-persona, the odds of a more intelligent response to the environment are greatly improved. For example, in our Collective, physical threats are the prime responsibility of the super-persona who will contend with those threats should the need arise. Evaluation of the reality of those threats and the potential response becomes a matter of communal decision. This often takes place faster than one can blink one's eyes. Kulwan, on the other hand, is our source of empathy, propriety and spirituality. He is sensitive to the world beyond our mind, attuned to the inner working of our body and attuned to the cosmos as it exists within our psyche. Functioning as such, he is the mystic who thrives upon seeking the utmost purity of soul. In this endeavor, he peruses the ancient texts for inspiration. The Yoga Sutras of Patanjali and the Samkhya Karika of Kapila are his chief sources of inspiration, texts that he has spent the last fifteen-plus years translating and soon will have a copy of his literal, non-mythological version of the Yoga Sutras available as his contribution to our collective website. Then there is Leroy Dumont, our irascible outlaw. He sees life in black and white, possessing no gray areas. Fits of temper, a tendency to resort to violence, and an incorrigible sense of clear-cut likes and dislikes are encapsulated in his darker corner of our Collective Minds. Kulwan and I manage to keep his spontaneous outbursts to a minimum and he seems satisfied to stand and quietly simmer until his temper subsides. For the most part, Leroy realizes from past experiences that his actions can elicit very tragic consequences for our collective existence. Although extremely patient, Kulwan seems constantly at odds with Leroy whom he regards as "an unevolved Neanderthal" while Leroy considers Kulwan a "sap-sucking wimp" (his words re-edited to render them non-obscene). However, despite the surface conflict, both have developed a deep respect for their differing points of view. When Leroy's temper surges, Kulwan and I let him break things to let off steam (usually inanimate objects unless we are under physical attack), and Leroy and I permit Kulwan to meditate silently while we stand back and quietly observe. This sense of mutuality allows our Collective to project an outward persona from a grounded sense of inner strength. Although it has taken many years to attain mental equilibrium, it was well worth the effort and the quest. In that light, I suggest that everyone strive to explore their inner selves and, instead of seeking a single essence of living perfection, declare a truce in the seemingly endless war between differing aspects of mind. With a little effort, a detente (relaxation of tensions) can be achieved. It is almost miraculous how much that will add to the enjoyment of life. In my estimation, this is the only way to attain true peace of mind without withdrawing completely from the external world.

If you wish to follow our example, undertake the following:

1. Identify three major components of your collective mind.

a. The rational, logical persona who can step back and view life's experiences and memories through unjaundiced eyes. This will entail forgiving yourself for everything negative you have done in the course of your life and forgiving others for everything negative they have done to you. The reality is: THE PAST IS OVER! Nothing you can do to relive it. Credit the negativity of others to their own stupidity and file your own under "The Stupid Things I Have Done". The only alternative is continually living a miserable life.

b. The spiritual persona that senses something divine in your life. This can be no more than the consciousness you possess. Religion and religious beliefs have no part in this aspect of mind. In fact, those merely will hinder a clear recognition of your spirituality. Doctrines and dogmas exist only within the realm of words. Set those aside while you try to embrace a sense of divinity in your life. Experience it! Talking to yourself about it will not further your quest.

c. Finally, recognize your "dark side". This is not a demonic influence or an "evil" aspect of mind. Instead, it is the persona bred into every human being that resorts to violence to preserve your life. Without it, humanity would long have become extinct. Your task is to find acceptable ways of letting this dark side express itself. Coexisting with it is crucial to one's peace of mind.

2. After you have identified all of the above, seek to evolve a conscious balance between all three personas. Permit each to express itself in a manner productive to your collective mind and life. When you accomplish this you should be a triad functioning as one. You will note that, when faced with a decision, a subtle internal debate normally takes place. Each of your three super-personas always manages to have their say. This is happening at the moment within each of us. Questions are asked. "Should I do such-and-such?" These elicit different responses. "Maybe I should try this-or-that instead." Thus, the discussion goes on. If you remove it from the realm of words, you will evolve a different, more spontaneous mind. In parting, it should be noted that from world religions to Sigmund Freud and beyond, the triad of self has been recognized as a reality of mind and reflected in different philosophies, religions and sciences. We have declared ours "the Unholy Triad" to reflect our humanness and normal imperfections. Leroy Dumont notwithstanding, there is nothing "demonic" inferred by this designation. Merely observe your fellow humans, and try to determine which super-persona they are presenting at the moment. This is a fascinating way to pass the time. It will add insight to your own quest of a collective mind.




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